I’ve had some pretty down days lately. After my last post, I spent the rest of my days in Guatemala and Belize in a depressed and unhappy state. When I wasn’t cleaning up exotic animal poop or feeding them, I...
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The Awakening
I am in Flores, Guatemala, writing as the birds awaken and most humans are still asleep. I’ve been doing this every morning and feeling quite like the author of Eat, Pray, Love – 2 years too late. (For those of...
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What is home?
What is home? Home is a word and an idea I’ve been trying to nail down for a while. When I left D, I think my idea of home was all wrapped up in him being with me in it....
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I’ve been having trust issues. Actually, I’ve had them all my life. But they are always in flux and lately, it’s been bad. I have many reasons for my distrust, but to me, it seems excessive, especially when it comes...
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There is No Script
The thing I’m realizing most about life these days is: There is no script. None. We’d all like to think there is. It makes us feel good to think we know what it is. It makes us feel safe to...
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Why I Hated Krav Maga and Why I’ll Keep Doing It
http://seekingmybalance.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/06/Why-I-hated-krav-maga.m4aPodcast: Play in new window | DownloadI went to my first Krav Maga class today. I’d heard of it over and over again and hadn’t felt any interest. Recently, though, a new friend of mine expressed desire to go and...
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Online Intimacy Discussion
To all of you who read this blog religiously, I want to invite you to an online discussion about intimacy, communication, and consent. I’ve noticed that seeking intimacy is one of the largest sources of shame in humans and I’d...
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Grounding
I mention the word “grounding” in my last post in regards to how I felt D grounded me, but I’ve found that word means to others something different than it does or did mean to me. To me in the past...
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Stuck and Unstuck
I had a paid cuddling session the other day that kind of turned my world upside down a little. He was an older gentlemen, who wrote me because he had a paid cuddle person he saw semi-regularly but she was...
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Change: Is it real?
The last few days, I’ve been on one of my many regular road trips. This time, I decided to go to Mesa Verde National Park. It’s the last national park in CO I hadn’t been to yet. This one, though,...
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