Mental Health – Page 2 – Seeking My Balance

Knock, Knock

seekingmybalance November 5, 2018 Mental Health, Relationships emotional rollercoaster, Transformation1 Comment

I wrote this post about polyamory a while ago. It became a bit viral in the polyamory community. There were very extreme reactions to it. Positive and negative. And looking back on the post, I remember what I was feeling...

Human Again

seekingmybalance August 14, 2018 Mental Health, Relationships abuse, Broken, Rape, Survivor, Victim0 Comment

[Disclosure: This post will discuss rape, specifically my own. Be warned if this may trigger you.] I have this book I own. I don’t even remember when I picked it up at a used bookstore…or why. Sometimes, it feels like...

Depressive Days

seekingmybalance August 8, 2018 Mental Health depression0 Comment

The pill I am on does not remove depressive days. It only (theoretically) reduces the number of episodes by 50% and reduces the number of days and severity of the episodes. Hence, I still go into what I call the...

Stories Revisited

seekingmybalance August 2, 2018 Mental Health, Relationships abuse, Divorce, Stories, Trauma0 Comment

I used to write. A lot. Like…a lot lot. Hours a day sometimes. From high school through to college. Almost every day. So needless to say, I have a whole archive of writing I will likely never read. It’s just...

Why Everyone Should Have a Dungeon

seekingmybalance June 12, 2018June 28, 2018 Mental Health, Relationships BDSM, Mental Compartmentalizing, Presence0 Comment

http://seekingmybalance.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/06/why-everyone-should-have-a-dungeon.m4aPodcast: Play in new window | DownloadOkay, so the title is a bit tongue-in-cheek. Kind of. Made you look? 😉 I don’t talk about kink here much – if ever. But, yeah…I’m kinky. And I have a dungeon. Seriously. It’s...

Lifting the Curtain

seekingmybalance June 7, 2018June 28, 2018 Mental Health Bipolar, depression, Psychiatric drugs0 Comment

http://seekingmybalance.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/06/lifting-the-Curtain.m4aPodcast: Play in new window | DownloadAs a follow-up to the question: Haven’t I suffered enough? It’s been about 3 weeks of convincing myself to take a mood stabilizer – and life is quite different and also the same. That’s...

Stories

seekingmybalance June 4, 2018June 28, 2018 Mental Health, Polyamory Divorce, Guilt, Home wrecker, Shame, Stories0 Comment

http://seekingmybalance.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/06/Stories.m4aPodcast: Play in new window | DownloadStories are not facts or fiction. They are all valid, but none are fully truth or lies. I start with this because I fully recognize that my stories about my ex husband, my current...

The Stage

seekingmybalance May 20, 2018 Mental Health, Relationships Acceptance, depression, theater0 Comment

Everyone talks about when the lights go up, but not after they’ve gone down. When the lights are up, I am me – loudly. I am me – boldly. I am me – under a spotlight. I am being judged,...

Haven’t You Suffered Enough?

seekingmybalance May 10, 2018June 28, 2018 Mental Health depression, Drugs, Psychiatrists0 Comment

http://seekingmybalance.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/06/Havent-You-Suffered-Enough.m4aPodcast: Play in new window | DownloadI went to a psychiatrist for the first time since essentially high school. I have a history of poor compliance with drugs that cross the blood-brain barrier because I fear that I will lose...

Witnessing Loss

seekingmybalance May 9, 2018June 28, 2018 Mental Health Being, Death, Loss, Transformation0 Comment

http://seekingmybalance.com/wp-content/uploads/2018/06/Witnessing-Loss.m4aPodcast: Play in new window | DownloadThis weekend, I listened to an amazing talk for the hospice volunteer crew about witnessing loss. It wasn’t at all what I thought it would be, to be honest. It was amazingly poignant and...